I know I'm sensitive at times, but I have feelings too kay ? Talking to other guys is okay, but talking to me lesser is just plain wtf to me. Who wont be jealous one if their girlfriend goes around talking to other guys, particularly the guys who're very close to me. You might think I'm selfish, but I just dont want to be feeling that you're not loving me anymore since you, in a way, seem to neglect me. I want to feel loved, and that love should everyday grow larger and larger and one slight difference in intimacy would indeed have impeccable damage on my heart.
I take you very seriously leh, that's why I think like this. Including the fact that I get jealous fast unnecessarily, you should at least try to avoid making me jealous ma ? If you dont, now you know. I know you think I like Felicia. If this is true, why am I still with my baby ? Why am I still with you ? If I really liked her, I wouldve dumped you a long time ago right ? But instead, I didnt, cos I really really really really love you ! I'm not the kind of guy who would dump my current girlfriend all because I found another person worth loving instead. What kind of guy do you think I am ? I really really love you la ! Words cant describe how I feel about you. The only thing I can do to prove my love, is by always being there with you. That's all I can do, after all, I'm just human. But of course, for your sake, I can be the best human being, existing in your world.
I only said that she was hot, who said I liked her ?
Ain't I the one who's showing you how much I want to be with you ? Thus, I'm the one who should feel that you dont love me anymore, and not you. So why do you keep doubting my love ? I just dont get it sometimes.
I could even flood you with many ILYs from me but I dont think it could prove my love in your opinion right ? To you, it might just be the words ILY typed onto an online programme. I need reassurance, anybody also can say Ily to me.
Please, I'm not being selfish. I just want to feel loved by my beloved baby every second of the way. Every single moment, every single breath. I would never want to lose you ever. Believe me, if you want to hear this words from my own mouth, its okay with me ! I'll be glad too dear, it'll be more sincere that way. Just pleaseeeeee, I just love you ever so much, if I didnt, why would I be this sensitive ?
Other people can obviously see that I'm seriously devoted to you, can see one. You know, I tell people about you. They know how much you mean to me. They can know by themselves how important you are to me, even to the extent of my good friend, Fah, being pissed with me over you cos I keep telling her about you since I sit beside her in class. So its more efficient to tell her, cos I really feel like telling people about you to somebody immediately. Thus, I told her and even got myself in trouble with mine and her friendship. She's one of the people who knows, your utmost importance to me. So why cant you ?
I feel as if I should pour out everything about this issue out of my mind, and currently, my mind's blocked. Have you ever felt as if you have a million things to say, but only have the mental capacity to spurt out only what could be stimulated ? Like now, I have a million things to say, but they are all just so deep inside my head, searching for a way to get out. Now, they're locked inside a concealed part of my brain, longing to be set free by a key, which could only be gotten after I finally manage to liberate myself out of this tragedy.
Swe Lwin, good luck with your similar problem kay ? I hope things go better for you. (:
Darn it, I feel like dying. My baby, my bros, my family, my life. Everything's fucked up. I'm screwed.
Note: Sometimes when I'm in this kind of situations, everything I say to you would be somehow ironic. So if I ask you to go away or all that jazz, it just means that I want you to keep apologising, telling me why should I forgive you, etc. Don't take what I say sometimes, the harsh bits, too personally or literally. Idk, I'm like that. See, told you I was amazing. *tsk, I managed to cheer myself up a bit*
Side Note: God, I'm having a bad headache now. I'm afraid that ... zzz.