Before I start, I'd just like to say.
I AM SORRY TAY HUI FANG !
When you told me you were too sensitive, I didnt think that you'd be that sensitive. I never knew things could turn out till this bad. I think I've just lost you as a friend ? A good friend I believe, all because of that breasts thing.
I know, I'm in the wrong. I do not know what else to say to you already. I dont take you as a joker, I take you to be a good friend of mine. A good friend that you'd finally trust a lot. I didnt mean any harm. Cross my heart, and hope to dieeeeee.
So of course, I'm apologising to you, publicly in my blog.
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Because of this firstly, I was down during Cross Country today. I went with Wan Yin. All because of stupid Alody, we had to waste 45cents (ez-link) just so we could meet her at the bus stop. Dont ask.
We took the same bus as Jasmine and Wan Yin got fascinated by the fact that Jasmine had small teeth. Hmm, weird girl ?
After all that, we took the MRT to Chinese Garden and walked and walked and walked all the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay till we reached Jurong Lake Park.
On the way there, me and Wan Yin got fascinated by this RACCOON. Yes, it was a raccoon and not a squirrel mind you.
Wan Yin: Eh look, it's a squirrel !
Me: Omg, dont get too near it. Ltr it'd bite you the you know.
Wan Yin: It wont bite me la.
Me: No lo, it'll bite one ! Stupid raccoon. Do not get too near it.
Wan Yin: It's a squirrel.
Me: No, it's a raccoon !
Wan Yin: Squirrel !
Me: Raccoon !
Wan Yin: Squirrel !
Me: Raccoon !
Wan Yin: Squirrel !
Me: Raccoon !
Wan Yin: Squirrel !
Me: Raccoon !
After a long time of walking, we finally reached and joined Brian, Dickson and Chih Peng for a brief while, then, assembled in our respective classes.
Basically, TODAY WAS CRAP.
Hui Fang texted me about her being unhappy with me and stuff and I got devastated. I didnt know Hf, I didnt know.
After reading it, I cried.
Me: Mrs Teo, can I go umm, pee ?
Mrs Teo: Okay go ahead.
WTF, I told her I wanted to pee. Why did I do that ? I also duno.
Yes, I went to pee but at the same time, wiped my tears off from my eyes. Eventually, I sat back at the front and Mrs Teo seeked my help in marking my class's attendance. Thus, I did just that and came back. I tried to smile, I didnt want to attract attention all cos I was really really sad, so I hid it from others.
But, I couldnt take it. I texted Fah to come to the front, so that I could talk to her about the Hf thing. I cried again when I told her the story. Fah asked me to wipe my tears and not to cry, but the more she told me that, the more I cried. Hence, I wiped the tears off with my shirt but I was still so so disappointed in myself. I'm like that, it's not as if I purposely said all those stuff about the Hf thing just cos I wanted to insult her man. TT.
I became so down and Fah tried comforting me. Thanks Fah. While that happened, the sec ones have already started their run. I noticed that Kenneth bro was first in line, followed closely by Swe Lwin.
When I saw Swe Lwin ...
Me: *head fell downwards*
I felt like crying again, but didnt cos I didnt want to.
After blah blah, pei-ed Eileen for a while, then finally, it was my turn to run. Thus, me, Fah and Hong Wei went to do our warm-up together and soon after, we started running.
Wow, during the first lap, guess what position was I at ? I was second initially but I became third shortly after. First was Shafiq, second Hui Lin and I was third, followed by Fah as fourth. Fah died off eventually and upon finishing my first lap, I too lost steam and died off.
After all that exhausting running, I ended up getting around a position of 30+, and yes, I didnt even get any prize, neither did the people who finished in the top 10 positions. Knnccbwtfwtfzxzx.
After running, I really felt like collapsing siolzxzx. I felt dizzy and light-headed and my head felt as if it was going to explode. I could feel my head beating literally hard as if it was my heart. I became delusional and I couldnt walk properly. Elena and Zavier laughed at me when they saw me doing so. -.-
Mr Kan, Mrs Krishna and Ms Gan, ever so wonderful Ms Gan, congratulated and praised me for being one of the fastest in my cohort. Okay, maybe not one of the fastest, maybe one of the faster ones ? I really wanted to be in the top 10 man.
Then, I talked to Ms Gan and also, took a look at Mrs Ong's baby daughter. Omfg, she was so cute !
Fah: How come she's so tall ?
Mrs Ong: Cos her mother's also very tall ma.
Lols. She was being facetious.
Slightly before the prize presentation started, I went off with Fah to the toilet. After shitting (oops?), I came out and Fah was already waiting for me outside. I was walking past and ...
Fah: Alios is like, smiling at you now.
Me: Huh ? *turned to my left*
And yea, I saw Alios smiling. I smiled back faintly and returned back to my seat. Few moments later, I got up again with Fah cos the Hf thing really bugged me. I wanted to talk to him about it. So I went to him and told him ...
Me: Hf's angry w me leh.
Alios: Huh really ah ? *said more stuff, but I couldnt really understand*
Me: Oh okay nevermind then.
After that was the prize presentation and then, we were dismissedddddd. Wtf, I was so so tired man. I walked with my clique all the way to Amni's house man. SO FAR AWAY LEH. While walking, I talked to Mrs Krishna, then also saw many teacher's cars and waved to most.
Halfway through walking, it suddenly poured ! OMG SIOL. I got momentarily drenched cos the rain suddenly subsided as well. I was like, covering my head with my hands leh.
Me: NO ! THE RAIN CANNOT HIT MY FRINGE ! LTR IT'LL BECOME LESS STRAIGHT !
So yea, my fringe still got wet nevertheless. Dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
In the end, we departed ways with Azri first, and I ate my swiss roll. Eh, I had to eat man cos I bought so so many stuff ! My bag was practically full. Lol, I waved big big to IGNATIUS, who was at the bus stop at the opposite side of the road.
Reached Amni's house, then after that we went to JP cos Farah they all wanted to buy band graduation presents. I met lots of people I knew there, even Ms Gan. Haha, she was shopping in Popular manzxzx.
The whole time there, I was so so down. Sorry Kamarul, Fah, Farahs, Lyana and Amni cos I know you all would get kind of pissed with me for being so-called emo. Sorry sorry.
Three things that made me lose my mood today ...
1) Hf.
2) Swe Lwin.
3) Something else, which I'm not going to say here.
At least there were Fah and Alios to brighten up my day slightly. I love you both.
OVERALL
I hate my life.
I hate everything which has to do with my life.
I hate conflicts with friends I really care about.
I hate my hair (except fringe if straight)
I hate Mdm Azzah for giving us so many things to do as homework.
Plus, I know ...
Swe Lwin mustve hated me. That must be why I think he's avoiding me ? So many people wouldve hated me anyways.
I'm hated. I dont deserve to live. Okay, that's juvenile but sometimes, I feel as if my existence is just pointless, particularly for today.
My clique hates me.
Crystal hates me.
Hf now hates me.
Eugene hates me.
Ranamita hates me.
Mdm Azzah hates me.
Mrs Teo hates me.
Kenneth bro hates me ?
Swe Lwin hates me.
Swe Lwin oh Swe Lwin broooooooooooo, what seems to be the problem between us this time ?
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I ...
I'm dead.
Dont worry, I'll still be the same old Syaifullah, but more quieter and less insane. Dont feel like talking much nowadays anyway.