I've learnt many new things today. (?)
One, I'm not funny. I'm like so frigging lame and I should just stop being facetious and just act normal for once. I mean, well, I'll get to that later. Two, Farhani taught me that emo in Malay means jiwang. Idk why, but it sounds like bawang or something. HAHA. Three, attempting to steal Sec Ones from other CCA booths with Elena and Jasmine just now was like so damn fun but sadly, hardly anyone paid attention to our psychedelic attempts and the very ironically-attractive-but-actually-very-damn-ugly-like-kns signboard we three trudged along with us. It read, English Drama Club, and it just looks so damn pathetic la. Kns. (Picture of ugly cheapo signboard below)
Four, there have been strangely uncommon but strong gusts of wind which apparently tend to have a liking to mess up my fringe as if it's not that messed up already. I mean, come on, walkwalk like happy-go-lucky then kana attacked by the stupid wind and my fringe would change parting by itself, be it left parting or even, CENTER PARTING. *horror music plays* I know right, scary you know. :S
Then it'd look as if it's alive and engulfing my face like some retarded 17 year old with such a cute Billabong bag which is evidently much more nicer than Swe Lwin's. *manifests my well-known guai lan face* :D
And I always blame him if my fringe's messed up by the wind because I have nothing better to do. Heh. Blame Crystal later like not fun cos her reaction always very want act glam one. LOL! :D
Five, Guang Rui has very lousy taste like Lwin (he says normal milk tastes nicer than chocolate milk. psh, bitches) because he claims I'm handsome. :S and speaking of him, it was all over the news that he got demoted! Omg right?! Haha.
Come come I tell you story *winks and tried to act sexy but succeeding*. There I was, laughing at the poorly-drawn picture of a pineapple I drew (no, seriously, I'm still contemplating why in heaven's name did I draw, out of all things, a pineapple), when my dad acted on impulse and on-ed the television and there it was!
BREAKING NEWS! Something Guang Rui, former 1A-ian 2008 member had been, *reporter stares damn close into the camera lens* DEMOTED! *horror music plays*
I got flabbergasted you know! *says in a very glam manner* :D!
This post is sooooo L.A.M.E (?)
Well, maybe they're right. I've officially lost myself. Not only have I been acting different, I feel different too. I'm contemplating so many things nowadays that I really feel like breaking away and finding that sanctuary I've always wanted to go. A safe place, I can always run to, to avoid troubles or misery. Or pain.
Today I went to Mac with Fah, Swe Lwin, Jasmine, Hf and Brandon after the CCA Fair. Didnt say much, because I've realised that my sense of humour's stupid and very different from their's. Plus, I wasnt feeling like it because I felt really uncomfortable because of you-know-who. Fah knows why. Anyway, Fah was being funny and I laughed at most of her jokes. However, sometimes I really didnt feel like laughing at all because personally, I didnt get it. Brandon's actually so fucking hilarious, but his sense of humour's sooooo, innovative one. I never thought I could joke about something till such an extent. I didnt know, I thought he was some quiet emo kid till 6 hours ago. Heh.
I was in no mood. I got pissed by so many things just now I really felt damned. I left for JP's Park area after I alighted at home to put my bag, because I wanted to think about what I'm going to do with my life. All these mixed feelings I've been feeling till I cry but still keeping it a secret. I'm getting lost inside my mind. Thus, I wanted to think. Alone. So I went there.
First thing which came to my mind, as I sat on some patch of grass there was this ... I shouldnt have eaten at Mac with them. I really shouldnt have. I'm not implying that there was something wrong with them till making me say this, but, all these fucked up feelings I'm feeling now was firstly established just because I went there and eventually, it all started. Mixed feelings started caving in. I shouldve seen this coming. Hence, believe it or not, I blame me. I know, I'm not making sense am I? As in, even my English in this post's whacked. Figures.
And now, perhaps, I dont need them? And by extension, him? We'll see. Bye.