Zzz, Eugene, you suck and I hate you. (:
Kay, I really have to stop blaming others and reflect. I caused the problem, so its my fault. Darn you Syaifullah. Such a useless, freak.
Why cant you do anything right ? Everything you do is wrong. Whether you get jealous over somebody you love very much going out with another guy, and his friend, or whether you just shut up and keep your jealousy inside, to avoid any unhealthy conflicts, thus damaging your own decapitating heart, just to make other people happy. Whichever choice you make, would be death wish upon your ownself.
And apparently, you chose to get jealous and be bu shuang, yet again. Why would you get jealous in the first place ? Is it because you love your gf with all your heart, and whatever slight risk of losing her would make you go madly insane and apparently, pull your hair ? Yes, I think that's the reason why.
On the other hand, if you just shut up and chill, these subsequent problems wouldnt even arise. Eugene's happy, Crystal's happy, but the only person who wouldnt be happy, is you. Am I right ? Tell me this. Who in the world would just shut up and chill, when they find out their girlfriend's out with two other guys, when he himself, was unaware of that fact. For all I know, he thought that his gf was safe and sound, at her own home. (:
And all she could say was, 'Aaron and Eugene went to JP, so I decided to kill time there w them too, to wait for you' ?
All this events eventually summed up to her hating your attitude and getting sick of it. Woah, I know how'd you feel. Your own gf, disliking your attitude ? Hold up there, not just any just attitude of yours. The attitude you show and express, as a result of you being just human, and merely reacting to the situation ? An attitude, arising from a faithful and sincere guy's care and concern for the girl he adores ? An attitude, being what it is today, because of how you're being brought up ? If you people might not know, he owns a family from hell. I know, pretty unbelievable dont you think ? I mean, look at him. So happy each time you see him, but at home, he's a helpless wreck.
He's verbally abused at home by his parents, but yet, we dont see this helpless side of him in school, dont we ? We only see, that over-enthusiastic guy, who never fails to be lame and crack people up as a result.
An attitude, exposed because he's just afraid that the leading lady in his life, would leave him, for a better guy like Eugene. Why does he think so ? I can personally tell all of you, that she once disliked that young chap, and ever since Syaifullah had invited him along with his outings with Crystal, she changed to like him instead. Well, doesnt this fact bother any of you at all ? For one thing I know, it didnt really bother Syaifullah as well. He felt happy instead, that his gf was finally liking another bro of his, who he's pretty fond of.
But now, Eugene being so amazingly shuai and nice and all, had made him into something he never wanted to be. Somebody, getting gradually over-protective. As time goes by, he's afraid he might lose her to him, as these few words, still haunt him ever since the 20th of April, one of the happiest day of his dull, pathetic life. "There's nothing wrong in steading with a cute guy." (:
So yeah. Eugene's shuai-er, so does that mean that she'll grow to like him instead of Syaifullah ? What if the love he and Crystal shared was just temporary and meaningless ? Part of a charade. Personally, I beg to differ, I know these past few weeks with Crystal were among the happiest he would have ever had, cos he really cherishes and treasures what he has with his inspiration (Crystal) to move on in life. Thus, he did not like to think that way. He still thinks that now, she loves him for what he is, on the inside.
So Crystal, I beg of you, everybody has problems, even you. Whether its family problems, relationship problems, friendship problems, or even attitude problems. And you at one time, even said this to him, "You give those fucking attitude when you're bu shuang. When you feel like solving the problem, you solve. When you feel like saying sorry, you say sorry." Well, you've sadly mistaken. You think he's upset and angry over this problem for no obvious reason whatsoever ? Just because he feels like it, that's why he gets upset and cause this problem ah, like you've stated ? No, everything happens for a reason. And the reason for him getting upset, is already stated above. So yeah, now you know why.
Actually, you should've already known that he's like that. Moreover, this problem had already occurred before. So should'nt you have known ? So why did you have to repeat history ? I know, that you know he would definitely get upset, but you still went along with that limiting factor anyway. Why ? It slipped your mind ? (:
There's still much more to say, but hey, let's see what happens okay ? I could continue with all clearing all this injustices against Syaifullah, but all good things come to an end. Would Syaifullah have that happily ever after he'd longed to have ? Or would he still move on with a gf, who hates his attitude, etc ? Well, you get the picture. My 20 minutes of existence is up. Goodbye.
But before I go, one more thing to bring up. And I'm very sure he's not playing around with you, Crystal. If he was, why would he feel what he's feeling now ? Why would he even be bothered with all this ? Think, baby. For all I know, and for all other people would've obviously known, he loves you with all his heart. Really, he loves you really very much. And I can personally say this, with all do respect, he just simply loves you la, I swear he does. (:
And sorry Eugene, things really shouldnt have to go this way. You're such a great guy, and you know I love you as my bro. So please, please understand my situation.
Your's Faithfully,
Syaifullah's Conscience
(:
Travis, whoever you are, I think I hate you. Haha. ;D