Firstly, Crystal, I've had enough of you. And I'm pretty convinced that you had enough of me too. So byebye. [:
Secondly ...
SWE LWIN,
What kind of bro are you ? You're supposedly the closest thing to me since Eugene, and this is what you do to me ? Crush my heart all over again ? How could you ?
I could still remember you vowing to me, that you wouldnt turn out like Eugene. Okay, so far you didnt. But betraying me ? That's even worse.
I told you everything and literally, everything. Even the fact that I used to think that Crystal's a bitch, as a result of all the rumors I heard about her (hugging Darius, saying Ily to him, etc) and that I used to like Hui Fang. Fine, Crystal convinced me otherwise that she didnt do all those stuff I was told by so so many sources. But omfg ?
You told her all that.
You told her all that ?
You told her all that ?!
Of all stuff, why must you tell her those ?! Purposely or what ?!
An accident ? Accidentally slipped out of your mouth ? Which part of secret did you NOT understand ?!
I thought we were close, tight. You said so yourself, you said so. You. You yourself said that you also felt a close bond with me; that you felt we were close. But now ? What do you want me to think about you already ? I believed in you Swe Lwin, I honestly fucking did. That's why when you suddenly didnt reply me as a result of you falling sleep unknowingly, etc and all that jazz, I just said, 'Nvm. [:' cos I knew, you really cared about me like how much I really did cared about you. But now ? I so fucking do not know what to do, feel or think anymore. Yes, I know it's over between me and Crystal already, but I figured if I really did have to break w her for something, I'll break up w her, knowing that it was entirely my fault. Now, isnt it you, the one I should blame ? Or isit STILL my fault, for trusting you so much ? Resulting, in me suffering a downfall from a war, I never once thought existed.
Even if it really was true that Crystal forced you to tell her, you still really shouldnt. You really shouldve treasured our brotherhood even much much more than your friendship with her. So what if she'd hate you or blah blah if you dont tell her ? She'd definitely eventually realise that she was wrong, cos after all, she's still human.
So yeah, if you really did treasure our brotherhood, why still tell her ?
Means you dont lo.
You could still cry, knowing that rumor of me badmouthing you, which I can assure you, I never did. Then now ? I see you like this, how could I even take you that serious anymore ? Should I just banish you from being my most beloved bro ? Since you're just going to remain being a traitor to me ? Or what ?
Bro, I personally do NOT want to lose you as my bro, not like how I lost Eugene. I thought I could tell you everything. ... EVERYTHING.
But guess I was wrong.
Swe Lwin, please. I want to talk to you. Through sms is the best way since you're already afraid of talking to me in reality. I have to clear all my fucked up doubts about everything. Please bro, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I want to know the reasons why you did all this to me.
Bro, after what you had done to me, I wish I could just say these three words to you ...
I HATE YOU
But,
...
I dont want to.
No.
I dont.
Yeah, and I still dont.
& sorry Alios bro, for the whole Hf thing. Also, for breaking the pact we made. [: